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TheHumbledSamurai's avatar

"I’m afraid of the version of me

That shows up

When no one else does."- madlizze

That is beautiful and I completely identify with this feeling. Honestly, I didnt know it was as common as it is until understanding treatment of CPTSD through psychotherapy. Do you often feel like you are being shamed? Honest question. If you dont want to answer that, just ignore and I will understand. Beautiful poetry.

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madlizze's avatar

All the time. Have a very bad relationship with shame.

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TheHumbledSamurai's avatar

I am sorry to hear that. If you dont mind me saying, it is very possible you, at some time in your life, were the victim of narcissistic abuse. Your poetry very much reminds me of this feeling and the shame is something that can be overcome. If this relationship was abusive in this way, it was not your fault and you learned that it was always your fault and that you are unlovable. If you havent already, you may consider researching NPD disorder and how to recover from narcissistic abuse. It is a completely different life after recovery and worth every moment of the work you put in. If not, then you are all the more wiser for having new knowledge on it and will be protected somewhat from it's reach. You have the mindset these people look for to victimize and you will encounter it at some point if you havent already. Unlovable is a common feeling of their victims, as well as, not being enough. People pleasing and self-sacrifice as well. Im no expert, but I'd say I am an expert at healing from it. Good luck. As always, beautiful poetry!!

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wild honeysuckle's avatar

absolutely incredible ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

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